January 27th, 2026

Housekeeping

I’m clearly not good at keeping a journal updated every day. Right now it’s about 7 AM as I write. I can’t sleep. Been up all night again. I really need to get a grip on my sleep schedule.

I have decided to try and get some more work done on this website thing. The main thing I want is a place to post my artwork and photos. After messing with the gallery features, I have decided to ditch it and host externally. As much as I like the idea of keeping most of my content in the same place on this website, hosted locally, it just wasn’t working out for me.

I considered many options. Deviantart, as I have experience with it, but the brand has gone downhill. Artstation - They were promising, and I made an account, but quickly learned I cannot upload any Photography. I was considering splitting my work, as they recommended 500px. After making an account there, I found out that they limit you to 21 uploads per week. If you want more, you have to pay for a subscription. That is so stupid, and I will make a more in-depth post ranting about subscriptions later.

Finally, through searching, I found out that Adobe has a website/portfolio maker that is FREE with the cloud subscription. I’m starting to become more okay with paying for them since I have to already for school. You really do get access to a lot of their products and features, and it does help a lot as a digital artist. I’m planning to keep the subscription after I’m done with school.

Speaking of, School is giving me problems. I missed one assignment already because it was fucking due on Sunday!? I work Sundays, not to mention I was up late because I worked late. I get that this is learn from home, but given the fact that the help desk and other teachers don’t work on the weekends, why should we? I will have to do the assignment and submit it late, and explain to my teacher why. The rest of my classmates aren’t happy either, according to our group Discord chat.

Moving forwards I will just have to make sure to get that course’s content done in advance, I suppose. I’m not too far behind; I’m actually staying on top of my stuff, so I feel confident my grades will go up. This is the only thing I missed so far, and it’s only a day or so late.

Getting back on topic, I have deleted my old gallery page. I will need to re-upload everything to my new portfolio, so that’s next on the bucket list. I will say I like how the gallery looks now, and it’s better than what I had. I can sort out my stuff into albums more easily, and add captions to stuff if I want to. I just need to also link it back to my Neocities. I wanted to get that sorted, so I don’t have to go and update the link on a bunch of blog posts later on.

I’m hoping this makes it easier for me to update it with my work as well, so I can add to it more frequently. I also linked to my socials, which I need to do now here on Neocities as well. Right now, this website is feeling kind of like my room. A bit messy and needs to be tidied up and organized. I can do it, I just need to get the energy to work on it. Even now, as I’m writing, the wind is slowly coming out of my sails.

I wanna keep this journal also updated with my life events, so here’s a quick rundown;

I’m considering taking nightshifts at work again. More money, it’s quiet, maybe I can study while I work. We will see. I want more money to fund my subscriptions.

Deadpool came out on Rivals, so I want to make a separate post reviewing that and talking about my husband. I might do a deeper dive on Fictional Others and my experience with them, and what it means to me.

The boys got me playing American Truck Simulator, of all things. Something about it is just charming and funny. I’m enjoying playing it with them. C ran me off the road and flipped my truck and nearly actually killed me IRL. I was wheezing. Lowkey developing a trucker oc now based on my beer drinking, drug snorting, speed demon Ozzy Osborne knockoff driver named Izzy Newborne.

Speaking of the boys, they want to come visit me sometime in March. 8th to the 16th I think. I am excited but also worried about a number of things. I worry they won’t like me in real life. I worry the weather is going to be bad. I worry I won’t have much to entertain them with. I’m scared of the absolute depression that’s gonna hit me when they’re gone. I really don’t have anyone to hang out with except my cousin and my friend O. I wish I could win the lotto so I could be Mr. Beast Rich and adopt them all.

Unrelated, but I am also considering improving myself a bit. Walking once the weather is cleared up - I will take my camera to snap pics, but it is an excuse to get out and do stuff. I’ve also been concerned about my looks lately. My hair and vibe steer me towards the pastel goth I always wanted to be, but I’m not living up to it much. I’ve been considering overhauling my wardrobe. I wanna be a little less body conscious and actually wear some sexy clothing and be my age. I don’t know how to bring this up to my mom because I’ve always come across as reserved and quiet. I also want to try some simple makeup like lipstick and eyeliner. Again, don’t know how to run that past my mom because it's such a drastic change.

I kinda feel like I’m not allowed to grow up. Don’t get me wrong, I’m very much still a kid. My room looks like a 12-year-old’s room, and I have toys and plushies and shit everywhere. I love this, and I don’t think I’d like very much sterilizing my room and style and getting rid of all of that stuff that brings me joy. But I wanna be adulting and sexy on top of it all. Something is so fun about the aesthetic of like, Sexy long-legged in stockings lounging on the big bed, and there’s cute little squishmallows in the background. It’s a hard thing to describe.

I guess I’m kinda trying to be normal? Like everyone around me is taking pics and using Instagram and being pretty, and I’m subcomming to the idea of joining the masses. I have played with TikTok Filters that give me makeup and hairstyles, and I really like them. I like how I look in those. I want to make it real.

I’m going to be 27 soon. It’s time for a change.

N0VA ★

Last Edited: 2026-01-27 7:17 AM